if i told you

i wish i can believe, everything you told me..
i just cant comprehend, why you just stand there looking at me..
am i a joke? am i the entertainment you seek?
like the puppet you are the master you tell me what i speak?

i wish i can believe, everything i have heard..
but the more i move on, the more i know everyone is absurd..
i know i cant be happy and this is my curse
i must of done something stupid in my past to get what i deserve?

i jump into conclusion.. to find the answer i hear to hear.
but you push me out, you give me no explanation..
just tell me what you are thinking.. right now?
i loved you when i was nothing, i am still nothing
but dont i deserve a reason why you tore me apart like a piece of bubble gum paper?

i must of been stupid to give you my all...
when my all was only my heart...
i must of been terrible for you to ignore me completely?
for you to talk to me so violently?
what have i done to deserve this hate from you..
when all i did was love you..

Because sometimes, forgetting is easier on the heart

sometimes its hurts more to hold onto stuff that tears us apart..
dreaming, wishing, hoping, and wondering where you are.
i stare at the skies waiting to catch a star
so i can make a wish to have you beside me once more..
is that really too much to ask for?
i dont believe it is..
even though we are still kids..
i hated the day we had to say goodbye..
i didnt know goodbye meant you would leave forever.. -sigh-
i really thought we could be friends the best of friends
guess not. goodbye for you was the very end..
i didnt know breaking heart was a trend.
but you sure rocked it well
but i was wondering if i can have my heart so my chest can stop the swell
i live each day wondering what if what could of been
if i stayed because you sure seem to feel the need to have someone 100%
i guess i didnt love you the way you loved the feeling of feeling wanted..
but you made me who i am.
and im not sure if i should blame, you or me
damn...
im here again on this road to no where.
stop and stare and im surely going no where...
life is tough but i always thought it could be fair.
guess not.