if i told you

i wish i can believe, everything you told me..
i just cant comprehend, why you just stand there looking at me..
am i a joke? am i the entertainment you seek?
like the puppet you are the master you tell me what i speak?

i wish i can believe, everything i have heard..
but the more i move on, the more i know everyone is absurd..
i know i cant be happy and this is my curse
i must of done something stupid in my past to get what i deserve?

i jump into conclusion.. to find the answer i hear to hear.
but you push me out, you give me no explanation..
just tell me what you are thinking.. right now?
i loved you when i was nothing, i am still nothing
but dont i deserve a reason why you tore me apart like a piece of bubble gum paper?

i must of been stupid to give you my all...
when my all was only my heart...
i must of been terrible for you to ignore me completely?
for you to talk to me so violently?
what have i done to deserve this hate from you..
when all i did was love you..