mornings

im sitting here drinking coffee and staring at the sky we use to share..
but even this coffee can not wake me from this aweful nightmare..
i remember a time when you loved me and use to care..
and now when i open my eyes you just arent there..

you use to be my horizon, i came to you every night
you were my getaway, and with you i felt so right..
you were my bonnie and i was your clyde..
we owned this world each day and night..

now i got no one to rule this kingdom that we built..
and baby losing you was my biggest guilt..
as i reminisce what we gone through i go on a trip..
wanting to hold you and how we shared our lips..

what if i died tomorrow would you ever care?
would you get out of your car and stop and stare?
remember all the times we had and the ones we shared?
what if tomorrow i wasnt there?

i used to cry just to put myself to sleep..
now my weeps keep me up at night..
i ripped my heart out and threw it at the bottom of the ocean
because it was tainted with your fucking lies..

now im sitting here drinking coffee just to stay awake..
because now you reak the thoughts of my dreams
and no matter how much i push you away..
all i think about is you.... and me

ocean

you use to be my ocean
now you just a puddle
you use to be my notion
but it's time to pop this bubble
you see the world with colors i can not manage.
but you in his arms, i think one day i'll understand it
sometimes manytimes it's getting harder and harder to breathe
but i'll take care of myself, one day someday i'll find me
i thought i found my heart my soul in you
you were the reason why i breathe
but now you got a man
and you mean the whole world to him
nothing i can do to make a change
and my world has stopped..
you cant need me
you cant see me,like you use too
but i cant trip,like i use too
because it dont matter
because it's just you two
walking away from what means the most
hurts so much yet you dont know
you
you... were the reason why i breathe
but now i have to find the oxygen
because im dying inside
maybe im weak
yeah. i am and maybe i was to blame
for not being strong to call you mine
im sorry i was stupid and those foolish signs
i miss you
i really do
but all i hear now
is the songs with you two
when i close my eyes
that's when you are near
one day i'll find my way back to your heart
but for now i'll be here in the dark
no spark, it's so cold
nobody in sight nobody to hold
i use to love you like it was a prize..
now it's only a chore
maybe it wasnt worth it
i dont know anymore

raining

in the rain we use to roam these streets
walk in the beach with our bear feet
and this world use to be us, you and me
but now you with him,
and you look at me differently
i see how you still look at me
and i think inside you still love me
but you dont want to get hurt
from this guy whom seeks to get hurt
someone like you shouldnt be with me
i dont deserve
i look out my window
wiping away the water in its eyes
since you been gone away
i been left here feeling blue..
no one can take away
this pains i feel each day
you use to be the sunshine in my darkest days
and now you the clouds that just wont seem to fade
i walk the streets where we use to roam
and baby now it's my only home
i open my eyes with these tears in my heart
i cant believe ive lost and this is over..

paper inked

have you ever woken up and feel as though your world is upside down?
walk the streets so crowded but the voices around you has no sound?
have you ever looked inside yourself to find the love you once had?
melted inside you cant to peel it off and you cant forgot the past?
i know your heart has seen better times. and i know im starting to run out of rhymes.. and i know i cant use words again to make you mine. but im not ready to let go of you and me. youre the words to my melodies.. and why cant you see.. im nothing without my baby..
we had it all, how could we fall..

have you ever heard a sad song that just makes you want to reminisce?
want to replace all the feelings you have now and fiending for that kiss?
have you ever went through a day without them inside your mind eating it away?
cant stop the thinking they left you all the pains inside you just cant find that new day?
i know sometimes you just want to rip your heart out and drop it at the bottom of the ocean
taking all these pills just to feel sane and you knew she was your last devotion..

i wonder why i didnt see through your game..
i couldnt get mad at you no matter how hard i tried..
but i know now you are tattooed to my brain
and i miss you so much it brings tears to these eyes..
sometimes i think im going insane..
sometimes i wonder why im still living this life
i wonder how and who is going to help me make a change..
because im losing myself to the emotions i said i didnt feel inside..

for now

walking away from it all.. leaving you guys behind..
i might say i am not sad.. but inside i am crying..
i love you guys with whatever i have left of this heart
and i know when i move.. you guys might fall apart..
but you guys are stronger than you guys really know..
and im dying inside.. i just dont know what to do..
i feel so empty here even with you guys around.
you guys are my only family yet you guys cant hear this sound
that my heart makes when you guys are tearing each other apart.. so dark we just keep on running..
we have fallen yet we arent learning..
that sometimes this friendship needs the concerning

i dont wanna lie.. but this is a game we playing and sometimes we got to lose..
it hurts inside but what else can we do?
i know we will be forever.. but i want an eternity
i want to die with you guys beside me..
not with this space between us..
i might be gone for now.. but i'll always come back..
but it's up to you to know what to do with that

L.O.V.E.

Walking in circles and around some more..
And i see im nothing to love but a stupid whore.
I worked all my life to love, love but now it's a chore
Maybe i didnt love, love right but now im not too sure.

Sleepless night drowning in the thoughts of her.
My life has passed me by and all i saw was blurs
Morning comes and i havent slept in hours
She was my poison yet i couldnt get enough of her..

The days comes and goes, it just passes by..
And now i see our love was truly a lie.
Yet i wonder why, why is it so hard to say good-bye
I have to let this go before i lose my mind..

I still reminisce after all these years..
And the love in me just wont disappear..
I am losing myself my greatest fear
But i think i still love you my dear..

Maybe this is a curse that i have to carry, my burden..
Something i have to learn to live with, im certain
I use to dwell in the padded cell i built for myself, so calming..
But now that i look at it this is hell, and i am burning..

im not going to teach your boyfriend how to dance with you

Heh... here goes..
You are the girl.. i always dreamt to be with me
Light up my world.. so the darkness can be seen.
You belong with me.. oh baby why cant you see..
Every time you are with him.. it hurts me..
you know you are my everything..
Im not going to teach him how to dance with you.
Because when i do i know it will be the end of us
Giving up on everything we knew and trust
Being together forever now it's a must

He held your hands like i held yours
I feel like a toy you play with when your bored.
He tells you he loves you and you get serenaded by his look
But baby i thought i did good. i played by the books
Why cant you see oh baby you belong with me..
I must of been blinded by your love..
But if you go with him.. i wont see this world
Because baby you are my girl.
Im not ready to teach him how to dance with you..
Because you are the girl and im still in love with you.