we talked and i started to crush on her more. and each time we did something she was there. and i fell for her even harder. i was friends with Suong that was friends with Alix that was friends with her. and we had a group called LATA. i was really fond of it because it was all my closest friends in one group.
i started to fall her LYLY more and more. and she started to feel the same for me.
and one night as we were hanging out i asked her if she would be my girlfriend.
and she said yes on August 12,2007. and that day on i did everything with her.
watch movies and hanging out.
i thought i had finally found it. but before i can make sure of it.
my mom and i got into a fight. and i was sent away once more. i was sent back to California again. but i was living on my own. my aunt help take care of me but she can do so much. i worked at my uncle's friends place and went to school. and each holiday i would visit LYLY.
and each time my boss disliked it. so after Christmas he let me go. and i was jobless so i couldn't pay for much anymore. i was out looking for jobs but it was really hard for my age. 17 living on my own and without a guardian. so i told my LYLY what situation i was in. and she said she would help me because she wants me back with her.
so she told me she had found a place for me and everything. i had told my aunt. and she let me go. as i arrived i had nothing. she was fooled the place i was suppose to stay at was a bust. so her and i kind of ran away for a little bit. her parents knew about a guy but didn't think it was me. so in a way i was safe.
and LYLY's sister said for me to live with her; so LYLY's family knows she is safe. and that's where i stayed. i went to school and found a job.
but i couldn't work and go to school because i had to pay rent as well. i asked my mom to help me but she gave me the cold shoulder.
so i dropped out of school so i can make a living.
i guess i was fine with it because i was with my lover. and i loved her very much.
we went to the beach. with our friends and that was the first time ever i went to a beach with someone i loved. we played with the sand and swam together. and i had the biggest smile on my face.
as time progressed so did my time too. i felt like i am not doing well enough for us both. and my step dad came to visit me. so i asked him if it was OK if i moved with him so i can better myself. but for my choice there is a consequence. i would have to lose LYLY. but if i do this i might be able to give us a future. but i didn't think she thought of it like that.
i moved to Houston with my dad and i lived with him and my sister. i didn't like my dads gf nor their little daughter either. but as long as me and my sister was together i was fine.
2 weeks had pass and LYLY called and told me that she was moving to Houston too. she was moving here for school just like me. and i was REALLY happy to hear that. because i was reunited with my girlfriend once more. it was still summer so we had our fun's. went to the malls and where ever our minds took us.
and as the summer began to fade away. my real dad wanted me to live with him. and i was bleh about it because i never met the man. but my aunt had because i asked her too. and she said he was a nice guy, and i should give him a chance. so i did. and with that choice i had lost LYLY once more.
i had told her the news and she was sad and irritated. because she moved here for me and I'm moving away from her. which i think made her think i didn't love her like she loved me but i really truly did. as the days got older. i spent most of it with her.
i did everything i can with her. and on my last day there; she took me ice skating. and it was the first time i did that with a love as well. she also bought me a black cap that i really wanted.
and as she took me to the airport i sat with her and said how much i loved her and she said the same to me.
as i was getting into the corridors i turned around and she was gone. it made me sad but i know she had better things to do.
but as i was getting on the plane. i only teared i didn't cry. because i remember the last time i ever cried like this was when i moved away from Lily.
i was on the plane and thought of how can i love LYLY if i still love Lily..
it made me sad because I'm not even sure if i loved LYLY like i loved her.
but i still love her a lot. and she was all i got when everyone left me.
as i got to California i stayed with my aunt that night. and the next day i was with my dad. i talked to LYLY on the phone everyday because i didn't want her love for me to fade. day after day she grew apart from us. but i never lost love in her.
and one night she was on the phone with me and she told me what she had done...
which stunned me really bad.. she had cheated on me. we were on a break but we were still together. and she had done something i wouldn't of thought she would..
a few days later i let her go. but her memories still drowned my mind.
and till this day i still cant let her go. even what she did. i still love her.
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